Everything comes to be only by the will of G-d, and yet we sometimes erroneously believe in the illusion of control over actions or time. Everything is from Heaven except for fear of Heaven. G-d wants to know how much you want to do what you want to do. Awareness is the conscious mind, and that is the emanation of self. Most of the body's actions are done without the self being aware of it. The self is aware of it when it concentrates on it after the effect, but the self does not determine all the actions of the body. It's all automatic. Without noticing, we are being externally controlled.